I know people who are in relationships, disfunctional relationships, because they are simply afraid of being alone.
I've been single, by choice, for 7 months now. Is it the longest I've ever been single? I think so.
I'm up to double this length of time. Course I'll fall in love. But I enjoy my singledom too much right now.
It's not the scare of potential monogamy: while it's not my cup of tea, that's one of the rare things I'd be wllling to sacrifice. It's not the fear of commitment: I've always been very dedicated to my boyfriends and I was their number one fan, often to my own detriment.
But it's just that. Detriment. I become someone I do not like when I'm in a long term relationship. I sit in my complacence and I cease to be this ambitious and independant young woman I truly am.
I am enjoying my singledom. And living on my own. I am not ready to compromise on anything right now: I've been doing this all my life with roommates and boyfriends.
And loneliness is pretty awesome when I spend it with myself.