Friday night, between some last minute work reports I had to submit, I was catching up on the third season of one of my favorite shows on tv: "Secret Diary of a Call Girl".
This show, is you never heard of it before, is a cheeky little day-to-day in the life of a prostitute. The TV serie is an adapatation from the book "The Intimate Adventures Of A London Call Girl", which itself is actually based on the real story of a London Escort.
The gorgeous Billie Piper, playing Belle, often breaks the 4th wall and looks directly at the camera. This time, she said something that really stick with me:
"You can't choose what's in your subconscience, you can only learn to embrace it."
You cannot control what kind of fetishes and fantasies you have, deep down your subconscience. You can only learn to live with them and indulge in them. Most people are unhappy in life because they do no find the proper safe way to do this.
And may be that's why my default mood is "cheerful". I'm extremely satisfied in bed cause I learned to embrace what my fantasies are and what I need to do to safely satisfy them.